Had time under a leaden sky to ponder the big question. It isn’t an inquest into the folly of a casual smoke with a glass of something, but the big question most of us were aware of since the age of 5 or 6 years. The one about death’s unalterable presence.
Nothing morbid. I am looking for clues to dodge and weave around the Grim Reaper I reckon there’s no point in being a f***ing warrior for 60 years of brutal battles only to be slain by a stray bullet moments before armistice. Well there wouldn’t be if any of us were in charge of our fate. Not the sort of nonsense the lame-brained think of when they spew ‘you make your own ‘. No you bloody don’t!
Fate is a known unknown. A fickle sadistic b’stard’.
So I foolishly endure past, recurring, and current agonies in order to complete my temporal business. Sometime!
After a life of planning which we all were taught to do to a greater or lesser extent; I have been slow to learn ‘ to live in the moment’. I value each micro-second lately. However ultimately I am not in control of something that will happen.
As if that wasn’t bad enough……..
Having persevered in the temporal sphere it’s perverse in the deep autumn of my existence that the consolation prize of an eternal reward (maybe the one with delightful maidens) has all but been dispelled by scientific evidence.
It seems not even the infinite universe will be infinite or perpetual. The stars will expand, collapse and end. Our puny but useful star will consume it’s dependant circling orb. The expanding Universe will eventually lose it’s heat and light and petre out to non-existence
Still it didn’t keep Mr. Feynman from looking at the positive side….
WHY? I believe is the more important question. Followed by HOW?
Another notion is nullified. The song lyric ‘we are stardust, we are golden, and we got to get ourselves back to the garden’ is not true. The ‘we are stardust’ bit, I mean. Come to think of it the part about the ‘edenic’ garden too!
Despite celebrity physicists Krause; Greene; DeGrasseTyson&Cox gushing that ‘we are made of stars’ ; these very intelligent people are forgeting about biology which ‘came’ long after the great physics, big chemistry and gigantic geology. Billions of years of the latter and then lots of sex. Biology only covers moments in a 24 hour clock parameter of the Earths history alone. Much like the act itself.
Billions of years after the initial singularlity, swirling cosmic dust with the help of gravity aggregated to form what became planets and so on. Sometime after earth’s formation 4.3 billion ago, bacteria, atoms, molecules, and so forth up climbed the chain to little swimming critters right up to the stage where anything remotely looking ‘we like’ made it’s presence.
The nomenclature of classification such as hominids; habilis; australithicus; erectus; sapiens, are different for a good reason. The so called homo-sapiens (somehow too much homo-not enough sapiens for my liking ) has reached it’s current state by a lot of biological fluids. Our ‘we like’ had ‘stardust’ but only if you are prepared to stretch the notion .
So ‘us’ being stardust is a notion which is hugely diluted.
Sad to dispel the poetry but Joni meant well.
More on life and inevitable death anon
Lets break for a musical interlude on Jango
I recommend the following tracks which are in Chill-Downtempo on Jango.
lebanese blonde by thievery corporation
All I need; La Femme d’Argent; and Talisman by AIR
Destiny by Zero 7
Anonymous melody by org lounge
sol by solar fields
cry baby by spiller
dayvan cowboy by boards of canada
distant light by jimster
Move from downtempo for awhile and escape to
Ultimate Summer Chillout
Another new day
Bohemian sunset by Jazzanova